Gospel - Matthew 10: 26-33

"So do not be afraid of people. Whatever is now covered up will be uncovered, and every secret will be made known. What I am telling you in the dark you must repeat in broad daylight, and what you have heard in private you must announce from the housetops. Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather be afraid of God, who can destroy body and soul in hell. For only a penny you can buy two sparrows, yet not one sparrow falls to the ground without your Father's consent. As for you, even the hairs of your head have all been counted. So do not be afraid; you are worth much more than many sparrows!
"Those who declare publicly that they belong to me, I will do the same for them before my Father in heaven. But those who reject me publicly, I will reject before my Father in heaven."

that was the Gospel passage for yesterday... it was also the reflection passage for the prayer session on friday...

ok so i'll start off with friday...
before adoration, Brother Nic read that passage for us to reflect on.... somehow all the times when he read the passage, this line kept repeating itself in my mind... "Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather be afraid of God, who can destroy body and soul in hell." i kept thinking.. why did that line keep repeating in my mind...... i knew God was trying to tell me smth... but i just couldnt clear and calm my mind to listen to His voice...... each time i tried to listen and search for His voice... i'll get super distracted... not by the noise around me [it was rather quiet around me la....]... but rather, i'll get distracted by my own thoughts.... fear that i might do badly for my upcoming midyears.... plus i keep thinking of all that's happening around me..... sigh.. i dunno why i think so much also.... dunno y i even allow minor things around me affect me so badly....... rahh!!!

ytd i didnt attend mass at Nativity.. instead i attended mass at St Anne's.... during the homily...... the priest said smth lyk...... fear is not exactly a feeling..... but somewhat a sign that shows we are afraid... why do we need to fear God? we're all sinners.... God has the power to send us to hell and destroy both our body and soul, forever! why do we fear God? we have trust, respect, and reverence for Him. we have faith in Him.. we believe that He is all-knowing....

suddenly during the homily it all clicked........... just for that moment in time.... ok apparently as you can see i cant rly rmbr it le..... so what was God exactly trying to say to me...............? sigh.... i guess i jus have to listen more..... and not get distracted so easily............. is that possible? i rly cnt seem to take things off my mind at all........ no matter how much i tell myself not to think abt it..... not to bother abt it........... i just cant bring myself to do it................ why? why? why? am i caring too much? sighs............ someone! enlighten me! what should i do?!