sighs... i feel that like a big failure la!! and that ive brought disappointment to many ppl around me.. especially my parents and someone else whom i shall not mention who here and perhaps another whom i shall not mention as well but for a totally different reason.. and also, im greatly disappointed with myself... sighs..

results arent very good... got back for all my H2 alr... 2s 1b... it tt suppose to be good or bad?! phy n math S... MATH LEH! of all subj!!! wth la... i was expecting better de lo..... sighs...... rahh!!! such a failure la........ boo...... phy totally tyco.. was expecting U-grade de........... chemistry.... quite ok la.. B..... but aftr chcking the papers i realised i cld hv easily gotten an A if i didnt make those careless mistakes!!! loss alot of marks dere....... rahh!!! sighs... ok no point in me complaining here.. wht's done is done.. i cn only move on n work harder........ ohh... n i failed GP.... T_T

the other day i "went" on a wild roller coaster ride... super wild one!!! ok not me but my emotions la....... i really felt like giving up totally.. on every single thing possible...... friends, schwrk, myself......... yar everything la........... i dunno wht went wrong w me......... sighs... yea.. i noe if i gave up on smth i wld regret it for the rest of my life..... but if giving up on tt smth wld actually perhaps make things better, i wld actually willingly give tt smth up....... even if it means to regret it forever.......... i think it wld be worth its while... ohh wells....... IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!!!! IM NOT GONNA LET GO OF ANYTHING!! ISA WILL HOLD ON TO THE END!!!

stress!!! i feel/fear tt i'll disappoint her agn...... i dunno if im being paranoid or wht la... but i feel tt she expected better from me........ n i somehow feel that she's tt bit disappointed... sighs..... mb im thinking too much... btw dun ask who the her is referring to......

sighs... i think im a great disappointment to him as well... sighs... im jus feel lyk a total baddie now.. disappointing everyone arnd me... n causing them loads and loads of needless endless worries... rahh!! i dun wanna disappoint anyone further... but seems lyk the more i try not to, the more i end up disappointing them....... dun ask who the him is referring to as well... n dont even bother guessing the him n her ive mentioned... if you know you know if you dont you dont no point asking....

you give me wings when im falling you lift me up when im down you lift me high touching the sky you make me fly